Montages

The first full day back without seeing any of the Thailand Trip people, and it really feels odd. Not to have to rush off in the bus and doze in the daylight cos the night was spent out exploring the town. Not to have to put up with the 2 UNAS leaders' bungling good intentions. Not have to see everyone and joke with them and play limitless and seriously imbalanced Bridge games. Not to have an unfamiliar landscape to look out over. Not to have the lethal and spicy roadside cocktail of fumes to inhale. Not to have a memorable sunrise or sunset. Watched the sun set over the rooftops of Simei today, and realised that the colours are really not that bad in Singapore, it's just that the skyline doesn't lend itself to spectacular views at all. And that's something that I will miss more and more every time I see a sunrise on a mountainside.

Spent the day not doing work...thinking about how to go about tackling the huge mountain of studying, and came up with a master plan. But for the time being, today was for taking stock and recovering, mostly. Spent the day making three collages...two small ones with samples of handwriting that I'd always wanted to do ever since Sec 3, and one with stuff from Taiwan which I'm quite proud of. Now the France montage has someone to share the wall with. And another two exhibition pieces involving the Bangkok map, but I ran out of blu tack, so I couldn't mount them =P

I realised, yesterday when doing the psychowhatsit thingy for the PSC, that I'm really quite comfortable with my life now. Heh, I reckon my answers may seem contradictory to the psychologists...a person who likes big groups but is shy around big groups =P But in my own little way, I've managed to find some kind of equilibrium between all the different aspects and contradictions that I see as my life. I think Bangkok really was what the doctor ordered...to put some meaning back into the grind, to give me something to look forward to, and now something to look back at. The aspects of people that were revealed on that trip reinforces my faith that not all people are malevolent at root, and indeed that most people really just want to be nice and to receive others' niceness. Makes me feel all secure again, as if I'm back in my proper place in the greater scheme of things.

At any rate, got movies to go watch...Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy is out in Singapore! And War of the Worlds will open on the day when the Humans pple finish their common tests. So there're two little things to look forward to at least. But I reckon that only something as big as going abroad will be enough to stave off the depressions of preparing for the ceaseless exams coming up next semester. But I guess we'll just have to make do...

And just realised that I haven't gone on a family vacation since sec 4. That was to Sunway Lagoon. And then after that, I've only ever gone overseas on school things...Texprog, then the Kelong Trip, and then Bangkok. I've quite forgotten how it is like to be overseas with family members. And Marcus and Mum and Grandma are in Malaysia this weekend, and I'm not even sure where or for how long. Maybe it's time we all went together somewhere...

pondered by phoenican @ 5.6.05