Catharsis

Woots! The major bulk of the papers are done, we've passed the turning point, the enemy is on the run, and all that's left now is a clean-up operation to mop up the remaining resistance! Heh well, that may be a tad premature, considering that the enemy hasn't surrendered yet, but the battle is more than half won! Heeheehee, it's been so long since the last time I came home without studying to look forward to. It feels really good!

All the papers were all right. If I had to rank them, though, I'd say that Lit was the most uncertain. Rather dissatisfied with my PBQs. The essays were really all so easy to do, I sould have studied more for the lit papers to take advantage of the essay titles. I was only satisfied with Frost and A&C, because they were the essayed questions. For the PBQs, they were not fatal, per se, but I get the feeling that I didn't cover everything I wanted to.

And in the middle of Heart of Darkness PBQ today, my pen ran out of ink. I never realised that exams use ink at such prodigious rates. The effect was to derail my train of thought as I fretted about how to continue writing the remaining essay. In the end Mr. Evans and Mr. Batchelor were kind enough to lend me pens, and in the end managed to finish all the essays, but the disruption of the stupid pen practically shot any hope of a nicely flowing essay.

History was rather good, I think. Both papers. Though I really do have to polish up my UN contextual knowledge. Econs was nice, because for the first time I actually had more to write than I had time for. I just hope that it all makes economic sense now. Maths...okay, no complaints, though the stats section was a tad fiendish at certain points.

So that was this week over. Next week got the last of Econs and the S Papers. I shall enjoy myself this weekend compiling more Olds poems for next week. And I've got a bit of Annales history to read, which should be interesting. But all that will be kept till next week. Now, I'm faced with a night of free time. Should I read Coetzee's Youth or play Red Alert?

Just now me and Yvonne took a lift from YS home, and were talking about universities. I realise once again how lucky I really am to have parents that give me so much leeway to do what I like. Sometimes it's harrowing, but it's times like these when the value of that freedom is made clear. The thing is to be prepared to take advantage of it when the opportunities arise, so you won't be caught out when you have to make a choice. And in the long run, even if you make the wrong decision, at least you won't have to blame someone else. And you'll at least have the distinction of getting to that point in life all by yourself.

Listening to cinema soundtracks on inernet radio now, and feeling serene and unoppressed for the first time in a month or so. Free time really feels sublime! Hehheh I wonder how long it'll take for boredom to set in?

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How do you give someone older than you careers advice, particularly if you haven't had a career yourself?

pondered by phoenican @ 16.9.05