150

You know, the more I read Atonement, the more I find myself identifying with Robbie.

Well it's been 150 posts, and this has sure been a productive tenure at this website. At least the servers don't crash as badly as over at FOD. These pages have seen a lot, I think. More than you guys realise, actually. There has definitely been a wider spread of experience...from the depths of hatred to the exalted heights of wonder. But the defining thing about :resilience, I think, is that it contains so much more happiness. Yep, I think it's safe to say that this second year of JC starting with the Taiwan phase of Texprog has been the happiest recorded time of my life as yet (if only by virtue of the fact that the records of the first part of this happiest time were lost in the hacker attack on FOD). A solid feeling of equilibrium and constant surprise at, frankly, how happy life can be.

And of course there are many people that I owe it to, workmates, classmates, friends, old hands, family even. You only have to flip through these pages to see how many times these people have saved me from descending into the old cycle of boom-and-bust happiness and depression. Maybe that's the thing...this diary has seen the unprecedented state in which my social circle has attained the critical mass to contain at least some happy people all the time =P

And to top it off there actually is something interesting to write about today! Unfortunately due to privacy reasons I don't think I'm at liberty to write about it yet. It just makes one pause and reflect on how one got here, what kind of intersection of unforseen and unseen forces washed me up onto this particular juncture of life. And where to go from here. Looking ahead there's only a blank, terrifying in a way because it is so vast and unpredictable, with no discernible pattern, but exhilarating too, because it's up to you to fill it. And it's not all dark, after all...look to the people. Therein lies the continuity. Some things don't have to change.

pondered by phoenican @ 27.11.05