Equilibrium

Heh unfortunately I don't have any Quidam music, Kueh. Although I'd very much like to have some! Don't have anything quite like the dystopian lighthearted mournfulness of circus music.

Seems like we've got something going on here...a study group emerged out of nowhere that includes the old 4N kids and Soph. She seems to end up in the strangest situations =P Anyway been discovering all the nice nooks and crannies to study downtown, which is so bohemian because you get to feel so intellectual with all these professional and slick people drinking their high-end coffee around you when you're munching down on your daily serving of History. Yep...now that the memorisation phase is over I am definitely happier. I think perhaps I may one day even look back on these days of self-scheduled time with nostalgia.

That is the single biggest advantage of study break - you have your own time in your own hands. Besides that...luckily I've got good study company. But beyond that...heh, we could do with less stress. Much less stress.

I find that I go into a trancelike state habitually now in the afternoons, when the studying is the most intense. It's like you can't respond properly to social stimuli...I always feel so wooden and robotic whenever someone tries to talk to me between 2 and 6 nowadays. But then, dinnertime is always fun in contrast. Get a bit of sugar into the bloodstream and I wake up to the real world again!

Unfortunately nothing much to report these days. Just chugging along. It's not boring, per se...since there is now no time left to indulge in the luxury of repetition. In fact it's a bit serene, actually, the state of being in which you know exactly what you have to do in the next hour or so. It's just nothing remarkable. Heh, being in equilibrium is quite a hard point to write from. Good thing it doesn't happen often, then =P

Oh there's a nice trip at the end of the year taking shape. Yeah...that's exactly what I need at this point...something to look forward to. Imagine the cathartic release after the 29th! Imagine the cathartic release of memorised facts and quotes after every single paper! Heh, at this point I'm approaching the time when I'd look forward to the start of the exams, just so we can get it over with and get back to living life again. And trip trip trip! Fun fun fun! =)

pondered by phoenican @ 28.10.05